Well, here I am with another medication change. However, if this one works I will only be taking one medication! They are weaning me off the Depakote and increasing the Seroquel to 600mg. a day. The depression is back with a vengeance again so that's why the change. Hopefully within 2 weeks I'll see a difference.

Well, I saw my last post and I don't know how I managed to make it look like that and I don't know how to change it. Feeling pretty down. It's hard thinking about Michael's mom being gone. He is having a hard time with it of course. Stacey will be here in 2-1/2 days. I can hardly wait! Her shower will be on Sat. the 12th and then while she  is still here all of the family will be going out to dinner in honor of Mom. I've been so hot and sweaty that I had to take a shower in the middle of the day just to cool off. I hate the weather whenever it gets above 70. So, I'm looking at a long, upcoming 4 months.  UUGH!!

There were changes made by the server on this website and it deleted a couple of posts I had done since the last one that is showing. I, of course, don't remember what I said in them so I'll start all over today.  Michael's mom died unexpectedly yesterday afternoon. She was in the hospital to rehydrate, increase her blood oxygen levels and improve her blood pressure. She went in on Friday. She was doing better and had a good visit with 2 of her sisters and MaryLynn in the morning. Her sisters left and MaryLynn stayed. Mom was eating and feeling better. The thoughts on Sat. were that she would go home on Sunday. They got her out of bed for a minute. After laying back down she was having some trouble breathing and told Mary she needed to go to the bathroom. Mary got her up and helped her back to bed but by this time she was wheezing and complained that her lung was hurting her. MaryLynn started rubbing her back, the nurses came in to see what was needed. MaryLynn said she could feel mom's heart beating out the back of her chest. Then she closed her eyes and died.  As sad and difficult it is for everyone; it is such a blessing that it happened this way. My personal feelings have been that she would have never survived all the chemo and would have suffered before finally giving into the cancer.  How I wish I was there.

Yesterday; Sunday, was a most interesting day. We had the joy of seeing our son, Brian, bless our fourth grandchild, Chase. What a sweet experience. Then after the meeting we couldn't believe our eyes but a man came up to Michael and I and it was one of the missionaries who taught us the gospel and baptized us in California. It was such a thrill to see him!  We had a great time over at Brian and Jamie's after the blessing with a great lunch and then came home.  Stephanie had had a call on her cell from Mary but she didn't leave a message. I tried calling but she didn't answer so I figured I would call her later after we had been home for awhile.  Then I got a call from Brian that he had received a text from Uncle Pat that said, Mom had died. He sent it to Brian at about one o'clock. I immediately called Mary and then found out from her what had happened.  Michael took it very hard yesterday but is doing better today.  I really wish he would go back to Illinois but he has such bad feelings about being back there I don't think he will even go back there for this. Mom didn't want any kind of service anyway but I know Mary would love to have him there for support. I don't think it's right to have the whole load on her shoulders.

The pictures just posted a couple of days ago are old. Ashlyn is now 6, Trent is now 4, Luke is now 23 months and the new little baby boy, Chase, is only a month old. You can go to Jamie's blog "The Smiley Family" to see all updated pictures. Still really down. Don't know what else to say. Going to see if Michael will take me over to Brian's tonight to see the kids. That might cheer me up. Haven't heard from Mare for a couple of days. Mom's MRI was postponed for 10 days because she was taking baby aspirin and the the dye used would not work correctly.

Grandkids

My glucose level (A1c) is 7.7. That is too high. Not seriously high but all the same too high. My glucometer wasn't working right so the Dr. gave me a new one and told me to test 4 times a day and then call him with the results. This way he will know what to suggest as far as my insulin shots go. 
Still haven't heard back from him yet.  Depression is still going strong. Steph, Jamie and I are planning a baby shower for Stacey when she comes out in a couple of weeks for Mother's Day. Can hardly wait to see her.  We posted it on my facebook page. I hope that is okay. Not too tacky.  It seemed the easiest way to invite people. Anyway, I hope it doesn't offend anyone.